I’m actually so sexually frustrated.. being virgin does not help with it. even my hormones are not helping. so I spend every day and night, year after year of no sex I become so sexually active and more frustrated than before.
I end up craving actual partner and pleasure badly enough.. I really do hope I found someone I like and love, care about.
i’m pretty much stuck in this situation for three years of sexual frustration.. lol sue me, I was reserving myself. I honestly have no idea how to deal with this after three years now today
Why must i suffer this from my ex-mother every day? today, the bitch didn't tell me that she would have a "friend" an another bitch i hate. was gonna be here to move in this house. i spent three years of pain, torture and hostility, toxic environment in a house i call hell on this planet. i also spent three years trying to find someone who was willing to help a deaf mtf for a place to stay, an place to relax and to feel happy, feel better. also an place to help out around the house, while i find a job at least. i just want to get away from my crazy psycho ex-mother. i suffered so much at her hands, i barely can tolerate and handle this harsh life with her.
yesterday, i sat down to negotiate with my ex-mother about our hostilities toward each other. it turned out okay. but today, right after my shower. she came at me with broom. it was officially cold war has gone hot.
i immediately went into defensive stance, the fight breaks loose. i fought her off after 45 minutes of hair-raising fight with her using broom as an weapon. i had to avoid and swerve around to not get hit. it worked out well. the fight was over when i got to her up close, disarmed her of that weapon.
after i had disarmed her, she ran off and left the house. the feelings of being hurt three years ago came rushing into me, i finally broke into tears, dropped to floor crying. i realized it was over so quickly that i lived. i fought for my life. i'm grateful.
This blog of Hers, Life Struggles are about her life in her view, point of view. are also about her thoughts on all kinds of matters in her life.
it is also her Journal Blog.
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this Journal is now NSFW too.