we just totally despise each other completely and give each other the "look" many times. sometimes the things are not better for us that can cause us to get violent quickly against each other.
yet if my ex-grandma dies, we have to sell some of our things and her things so that we can make money before moving to other places.
and that's when we do have enough money during those times, I plan to get my money through this method and divide the money earnings between me and my ex-mother which will give us enough to go on our separate ways, moving to somewhere separately.
I will move to California's backside country, right here on Sonona Coast. can have a house built near the beach. that will be my first thought to move to here, yet I have other places in California that I'd like to move and live too.
things for me would have been alot more nice and better, no drama or getting hurt in worst ways like I did experienced it myself in my former family.
the scar I still bear actually still hurts and lingers in every waking moment of the day, still hurting over the time and days to nights. I come to the point that I just wanted to be free from this pain, so that I may feel better about myself.
but that will not happen. my only hope is to get my scar no longer visible and fix it through scar removal surgery or something like it.
it will help in short run for me to feel alot better about myself and not having to continue looking at my face in mirror and also to feel the scar on my face too.
I wake up today this morning, realizing that I should not allow the life to beat me for enjoyment and amusement at cost of who I am and what I stand for.
I will not let life actually have their way with me again. nor will I ever let it hurt me in many ways I have been hurt over certain things.
it is my duty to the people of MTF communities. I AM the Avatar of MTF Communities, anywhere you are I am present and available.