I'd like to live with my boyfriend Rouge badly, but I have needs that I need to set for myself to be accustomed to living on my own.
I just need to get away from the old family members and old friends. it's time for me to start anew in my new life as girl.
it all costs money to do it. which it does suck that it's reality of living, but I want to at least do it to get here.
so that's why i have stopped all contact on Facebook after final post, just to keep them in dark.
I'm going to ask for restraining order on them once after my change. just so i'll be remain safe from them. they're not going to get near me without getting arrested.
that is if i do get married to man of my dreams and start family.
so i took shower and mediated here in hopes to gain guidance i seek for.
also.. i never really got help in real life, all friends never made a reply to my asking of moving out and moving in with their help. in fact, none of them at all has ever said a comment or made one.
so i think it's for best that i move on without them on my facebook and in my life.
after it finally subsided, i crawled back to my room and climbed to my bed, finally resting here on bed.
as i was resting, i opened my eyes a bit, i saw Austin looking down on me. he had his hand on my stomach. he was healing me and i felt little better.
i thought, "that's not possible.. how can a Spirit heal a living mortal?" he said, "here's more to spirits than what you can think or thought of." i just blushed and said, did you read my mind?" he said, "yes"
i owed Austin for healing my pain in my stomach... i wonder if he was watching over me.