she had hidden it from me to make sure I'd get hurt deeply on how I was already feeling at the time when the collection went missing. unfortunately for her, it did add to the pain and tension between me and my mother which led to the moment that she got hurt in march.
but I'm kind and good person, I cannot hate them nor despise but to move on and ignore. I am the Avatar of myself, my life and my happiness are mine to control. not Life.
I shall move through the crossroads of my Life every day and night, I will only decide which path to take.
even about the loss of my beloved dogs. no dog will truly replace my dogs's shoes. I did not wanted a new dog, but my mother got Buster for herself since the loss of those dogs.
I actually have repeatedly told her that I'm not ready, and still are not ready. it is very serious wound that takes long time to heal. the wound today still has't healed fully.
all i want to do is to escape from them and start over from ground up.
(yes, I'm pregnant in IMVU)